Is juss sumthin light!!

Where do I even begin...my mind says No but my heart always tells me yes,how do i tell u just exactly how much u mean to me? How do i live with thinking everyday when i see u, u probably don't even feel the same way i felt about u for the longest. How do i go about ur day wondering if u're even thinkin about me? To kno how it feels to have loved then lost,or to never Have loved at all,there's so many things I wanted to tell u but if I did I'd probably ended upp looking like a fool just blurting my feelings out or be put down cuz u doesn't feel the same way,a fear of rejection but something i'll never say.u probably doesn't even knoe how bad this feeling is,No matter who I like for any period of time long or short, u're there waiting 4 me in the back of my mind cuz u're like No other.u can make me feel like No other,like No girl I ever liked even meant anything cuz they're nothing like u. Sometimes I wonder if God really has a soulmate for everyone,do people really kno at first glance dat the person they gaze at is the one and only person for them? Sumtimes I feel like i'll never fall in luv,like everyone around me has someone,someone down 4 them,and what do I Have? I'm a person dat always had somebody..it hurts 2 see my closest friends all luvvy duvvy and I'm standing there behind my shades like they don't even kno how lucky they are 2 Have eachother,to be able to call somebody baby and stay upp until late at night talking about absolutelty nothing,I've been there b4,but I guess it was false alarm,it was nothing special.and then I look at yu and see a totally different light like damn u one of a kind.I can't even front dat I love yu, its so sad,I can't even bear 2 like any1 else rite now cuz dey all wack compared to me. But w.e maybe it sounds like im Kissin butt or feenin but I'm not,I just feel bad dat I cant say nun of this 2 u and u just won't understand how I feel and take me 4 a fool.